Emskis Place =)

well well well people

skl on monday EEEEEEEEEEK

haha

Omg so much to say so little time to say it as im running late to get into town to meet craig but before that i need to go to boots.

Yes people, Emski has finally hit puberty and has got spots LMFAO only like 3 but waaaaaaaay to many for my liking.


Anyways


OOOOOOOOOH!!! I goted my N.I numba!! Whos a big gurly now =P

haha

Update 2moro or summit


Emski
xXx

RAAWWRR


heya ppl, FINALLY moved in2 the new flat on Monday. Tis sooo nice i woke up at 6am on Tues and my dad was out at work and i looked out the windows and watched the city wake up. Twas soo amazing. Then at like half 8 in the morning Craig came up and we went to bed and i fell asleep! HAHA lol then we got up and had breakfast. It was so good just to sleep in his arms =D



still runnin about tryin so sort a few things out but not as bad as before. the last week was a pain in the arse! I had like NO time to conact ppl espesh jane <333333 =] (missin yooo).


Twas funny watchin ppl get tha furniture in lmfao. Me and Nemo were pishing ourselves watchin Craig, Stuart and Bob take the washing machine in. hahahhaa


finally beginnin to settle, its soooo good to have sum space and live with my dad. Tis a bit weird but.


Anyways, for those that have no idea where I stay its the white highrise flats in anniesland Buzzer Number:67 then call, then Floor 6 in the lift. and oh yeah, if u hate lifts then yer screwed cos im 18 floors up hahahaha. Elaine and Craig have had to take the stairs, but me n Stuart just laughed. hahaha


THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THAT HELPED ME TO MOVE IN THE FLAT, FROM MY WEE CLEANING AND PASTA EATING CREW, TO THE BIG MUSCLY MEN THAT NEARLY DROPPED A WASHING MACHINE DOWN THE STAIRS AND ALMOST GOT MY BED STUCK IN THE HALL!!! Its been fun.... I don't intend on moving house again too soon, but if i do, I'll call on youse all again so RUN!


Love Youse All


Emskikins
xXx

Heyllooo peepo. Not updated in a while. Mainly cos i dont have pc jus now. But thats just a minor detail.

Ufft skl = shittttttt. Emski possibly gettin suspended / expelled over mr gordon bitchin about her. Big Al has final say, but its based on the "recommendation" from Pedo. **great**


So tuesday just there was shiite went home. Cryed. Did shit texted scott. **sorrryy Scotttttt**


Told Luci today **sorrrryyyy Luciiiii**


Ufft Parents Night 2moro. Dad has to speak to Mr Gordon. But pedo wants to speak to him as well. And Bitchy. Offt.


Hopefully I can go to catty on Sat. Wonder whose going. Like, I know who usually goes but i wonder if any new people LoL.


Ufft aint spoke to Liann or that in ageeeeees.


**meh**



Emski
xXx

righty - ho.

as most of youse might know, i aint at my mums anymore. i moved out.. well attempted to move out on tuesday after she hit me with a book. got to the door. she caught me. wrestled the door off me. i don't know how to describe that. i wanted out. i didnt want to be there anymore. enough was enough. she stood in front of that door. asked me wtf i was doing. i told her i was going to my dads. but really, i wasnt. i'd already foned caroline + ami to say i knew she was gonna xplode when she got home.

caroline (aka. aunt), told me that if she hit me, or told me to go to my dads, i was just to go to hers. Just before seven on tuesday. she hit me with my A4 notepad. on the side of my arm, the side of my leg and across the tops of my legs. i got up, went into my room, got my jacket and bag on, headed for the door. she got me.

we stood at the door screamin. why didn't no-one come down ? it was soo loud. sum1 should have just knocked the door to see if evrything was ok.

of course, my mum would have jus said "yes, yes its fine. its just Emma." in that lovely tone that makes it hard for most people to believe what shes really like, and that would have been that.
but no-one came. no-one. i walked back into my room after we had a huge argument about how shes got problems and she HAS to admit that. at least i do. she took my mobile fone off me and my house keys.

she locked the front door. took the keys away so i couldnt get out. she told me to get my dad to come and get me from the house and then she'd unlock the door. then she started sayin she didn't want him near her house. she kept sayin it one way then another just to confuse me. she ALWAYS does. then she can blame me again.

found my mums mobile in the kitchen, i foned my aunt on it, said that mum had locked me in. she said to fone the police. but i was too scared. what if it backfired and i was still there. i would have gotten it so badly. so i had to BEG like i have to do at the end of each argument.

I promise i'll change
"i dont want you here"
i will, i will i promise.

its hard to explain. but i always have to beg after an argument to stay there. and i was cryin that night, cos i knew i wasnt going back the next day.

after an hour, i was able to go to bed. i jus fell asleep to my mp3.

"tell your stupid pals not to fone this house anymore."

they were only fonin to see how i got on with my physio . whats wrong with that.
she just likes to be in control of me. but shes not. not anymore.

i've wanted to leave that house for so long. but i've had to be soo careful in case it backfired and i ended up back at hers and things were ten times worse. i culdnt live with that.
shes took away the first fifteen years of my life. i appreciate her bringin me up. i know it must hav been hard, but controllin me and treatin me the way she did was WRONG.

the skl got me a taxi on wed to my aunts work. not been home since then. mum wanted her keys back. i was to meet her on thurs next to semi - chem. i took caz with me. i was early, and stood talkin to luci at the bus stop near woolworths. then caz came. i knew i was going to shit it when i saw my mum.

i saw her. she obv saw me. she looked in the shop window as if to say "well come over then" i could tell she wanted me alone. i didnt. caz came across with me. i just gave her the keys, walked away to spar. "right thanks." thats all she said. she didnt sound to happy. she obv had been wantin me by myself.

SORRY THERE BUT IVE GOT PEOPLE AND FRIENDS WHO CARE ABOUT ME AND AREN'T LETTIN YOU ANYWHERE NEAR ME. !

then jus walked upto skl after we went to spar.

theres still alot the skl have to sort out. social work are classin carolin as my extended family, which is good. but also cos im over 12 i can decide where to stay temporary. but as im nearly 16, then its up to me. my mum cant do anything about it. she knows where i am. so she cant report me as missin or that.

started cryin in chemistry yesterday, i only asked for topics 1 to 9 revision notes. "i've gave you them before. they should be at home. have you not looked?" then i was i'm not home at the moment and started to blub. cos it was near the half 2 bell she let me go to the loo. then i was to go see miss stewart cos she knows alot about my mum and i at home. so that was ok. shes glad im not at home with my mum anymore. and shes tryin to help me get a pass in chemistry.

I've missed alot of schoool work. the school supports me all the way. they'd rather i was at my aunts than at home. Mrs Ritchie could tell when things were bad at home cos thats when there would be referrals and me lookin shite. They said my behaviour wasnt me, it was because of my environment at home. which is true shit at home = shit at skl.

im gonna try n prove to my teachers that i aint a wee bitch. its just cos of the way things were at home. i've spent most of the skl year outside classes. missin shit. its not just an end of topic test. its like maybe ten or eleven topics crammed into one test paper and an hour to do it in.

i'll try my hardest. i need to tell all my teachers about me not bein at home LoL

dr peden, miss stewart ...erm... sorta french all i said was im not at home. mr mcnichol i have to tell eekk.
erm.. shiit mrs copland... mrs johnstone, mr webster...arrgh. ok so i havent told all my teachers.

mr davidson knows summits up, he saw me in mrs ritchies office and we were at the door talkin so he prolly heard me...

oh well.


first prelim today. i fuckin hate daniel pender. shitebag. fuckin hittin n kickin me. WTF IS HE ALL ABOUT ?!?!?!? i dont talk to him FS.


Gillian foned earlier. Bascially, my heads stil spinnin from it but basically, shes at my mums, my mums in tears, my mum wants us to meet to talk. i dont have to go back to hers but theres gotta be some sort of communication, my mums alone now, wanted me to get my stuff alone so that she could talk to me, im bad thats why she gives me into trouble, she locked the door because she loves me, she hit me with an A4 notebook(so that makes it ok), some form of communication has to happen, waste of fone call.

That was all gillian speakin. apart from the brackets. i'll make communication with my mum, but only to get my stuff and i will have some sort of official law person with me. i dont plan to meet / talk to her in the near future. we'll see how i feel. i dont care shes cryin or that shes alone. her fault. whats the tears for ? tears of what ??? what has she to say to me that she cant say in front of carol ? shes said more than enough in the past. if im bad i take the punishment. she jus fookin goes overboard and punishes me for everything and doesnt let me have a life.

and gtf if you think im exaggeratin you obv dont know me.

hillamaria - "oh but your mums dead nice". i think once i started tellin her about what she does to me, she realised she wasnt.

i know im not going back now. my mums JUST beginin to realise about how serious i am about not going back. she probly still thinks im gonna go back there with my tail between my legs. i ain't. shes VERY much mistaken.

PLAN FOR TOMORROW : go to partick police, get some advice about my rights and how to get my benefits that my mum claims for me cos my aunt doesnt want her smokin them away as that money could pay for my education. then to brians to see if he'll take Trixi till i find her a home. ++ hopefully a police escort to get my stuff back.



My heads still buzzin, I'll be fine. The skl wont let her near me if she comes to the skl. Shes makin me out the bad one, ha! wrong bitch. very wrong indeed.


Luv You All

Emski
xXx

PS> Dont fone / text my mobile i dont have it. but cant wait till i get it back / get a new one.



























-x- Still a long way to go but, -x-

omg, today was so much fun at hennas, i now have the corpse bride :-) :-)

we watched part of it, then wathed sixth sense, then listenend to music, took pics, gabbed and made hunners of prankie fone calls. oLo

 

 

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emski
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Well, skl was "eventful". I've actually had quite a shitty day. Im ill, and Im tired. Then to top it all off. I get my period. **sighs**
I am achual fed up. Im tired/ill and i think rather moody//moany.
Only highlight of my day was seeing Lauren and ave not seen her since the hols.

I hurt from last night. My tummy. Oh which, might i add, has no "shape or definition" **covers tummy** yeah...thanks for that...

Thinkin bout going back on ze needle bummer. **thinks** yeah. cos i dont like this. it sucks...

Really need to tidy my bedroom. But i'm too tired and can't find the motivation.

 

Ami's on the fone. this is like the 14th time shes foned me tonight. we are in search of Ollie. ;-)